Aint this just cute? hahahah 

Ant-Tee-Bee

Hmm..reasonly wash evovle inn Ant-Tee-Bee

but anyhow, i still have time to blog. Dun ask me why,

I also forget how, I just happen 2 Bee Ad Home.

As usual, my freaking brother has been playing his Old bulky Ps2,

hell wonders how his gonna support his gf/cum wife-to-be in such a state.

I dun even believe he can buy his own flat. lolx...I dun think he reads my blogs...

He SuCk big time...

Wahahahhahahahhhahahahahha

but i still love him.

-

Okie, my mum's asleep, and i seemed to be super energetic today, cause

tomorrow is friday...hiak hiak hiak...not that i have any programmes really....

just tat its fry day you knwo? people tend to get excited on weekends.

Haven have any inspiring ideas recently....haven been drawing nice things..

all the doodles are ugly...so im not gonna post any of the shits....

I think i'm losing concentration...need to get them back from the busy schedule.

Everyone in the organisation is flying up India, less me that is...so effectively,

that means im gonna be a big FraCk these few months...wahaha

[cause my new big boss also flying there]

I really wish , and i really mean it, WISHED that im in Uni now.

29th this month will be one of my friends' show in a NUS hall.

not sure whether will be going....there should be lotsa

ch33 ch33 gurlz...but anyway...it doesn't matter anymore.

The more important thing is i ain't got a company so far.

Really wish I'm in school....can study, skip lesson....lolx....and....just

hang around with friends....sigh....still have to wait 2 and a half years

more......I'm feeling so Miserable....

-

-

-

Some words are taken off for ObVoiius reasons.....and yes...this is for Ant-Tee- BEe..lolx...if you dunno whats that too bad lar.. 

Lolx, the left most is my NEw BOss...He very yandao right....Too bad married...else i will...huahahahhahaha......hiak hiak hiak...hope he takes me in as his god-son...wahhahahahah oh year dream on. His a nice boss.. 

~~TsunaME Enuffz~~

~~Tsunami~~

-

I am extrememly tired, sick and disgusted by how many million peeps,

trying to tell the story of Tsunami through their little pore holes and SpectaCLEZ.

THE WHOLE FREAKING WORLD KNOEZ theres a TSUNAMI,

THE WHOLE FREAKING WORLD IS TRYING TO DO SOMETHING,

so for all those guys who are not directly involve, please stop yelling about,

"OH GOD, wish i could go there and help them"

or

"oh may we pray for them"

we have ALREADY done alot praying lor, can wake up?

its not that im against it but the general lots of people is indeed using Tsunami

as a topic day in day out. [all of us have eyes to look at Straitstimes everyday]

NOthing of me against the tragic,

nothing of me against guys praying for others,

nothing of me against volunteeringwork,

but something of me against whiners who are just blogging Tsunami

and posting pictures of which area it is hit lar , all those blah blah shitz.

For those who are directly invovle, do keep everyone posted on vidz and pics,

for those not, stop being lame and posting pics from other people and using

it as your everyday topic.

-

~~NDP~~

-

YeS, i am back home today again, and as of today, I will be invovle

with the sub-title above. Yes, NDP 05.

Well its not tat bad actually, we get to go around cityhall today in my

CO's nice mini car....[how i wish i had one]

and his very nice to us....

And because of him, we get to go around SwissOtel's Pool, enter their meeting

rooms and went to the forbidden 29th fLOOR!! HAHA, how cool.

Anyhow, NDP 05 will see itself in PADANg...Traffic control's the

biggest problem now. Gonna post some pics soon of the nice SwissOtel View.

-

LoOk-At-M3-Fly

~BASKETBALL~

-

haha...below contains some clip for yesterday's match

like the title says, you probably see guys flying here and there trying

to dunk...lolx...sad to say none of us succeed.

Anyhow as usual, its in .3gp format and YeS!, quicktime can open it

[the new version of qucktime tats 6.5 +]

its in zip format and loww...quality..sry we guys dun own expensive gadgets.

Probably someone can donate.

And as usual, its taken with K700i hp, with Mr.Luo han in black N red,

Hongge in Blue N yellow[you'll see his 3 Pointer], BAboon in

Blue and white..and yes, I'm in blue black...

-

This latest edition features crazy people trying to attempt to fly around

the basketball court hanging on to the rings...Anyhow it was fun...

See?? excercise can be fun with the right peeps.

-

download: http://www.geocities.com/killerbe83/BBJan05.zip

-

Recommendation:

~~ ASOS - Ai Bu Chi Jiu ~~

-

not sure whether you guys heard before the song, but yup, im recommending

it, been looking for this song 4 very long. It brings back alot of memories and...

just simply meaningful in the lyrics, style and...very moody flow...soft and...

the kinda song that just kills you softly.

-

GeMiniZ

Today is sunday, probably one of the worst days of the week

Caused its the last day and its a free day.

And if you dun make use of that day fully, aint you like wasting life?

I always hav this weird thinkin and i just simply can't stand wasting two days.

tat is SATURDAY AND SUNDAY.....

they are sooo bloody precious...and finally, i just recieve a phone call,

gonna go out for a game for basketball.

-

Lam3 and boring right?

-

Probably to most of the females out there it is thus far stupid to go out

and play sports cause you CH33 Ch33 gurls just DUN excercise.

-

~~PROVE mE WRONG!!~~

-

Its not as bad as just going out for a game and most probably it will turn

out fun. And lately i have come to believe that females are getting more

N more N more Unromantic. Since when issit the responsiblity of being

romantic StaMp on a guy? I thought the 21st Century is suppose to be equal?

And even start asking me why lately I'm so grumpy against female and relationship

stuff, Obviously something must have happened and....

I just simply dun understand stuff,

[probably thats why im whinning]

Hell kno3z.

As much as i like to ignore my GeMinI personality, i just like to

ponder N ponder N ponder N ponder N ponder,,,,

probably DIE pondering ......Does anyone out there

has drugs that can stop brains from thinking Too MUCH? and trying

To figure out sOo many weird things??

-

-OK EnuFF about my complaining-

-

I'm gonna talk about other fellow Geminis whom recently,

created some storm over other peeps life, thats my dear friend's life.

With my crazy thoughts day in day out and wicked brain cum evil

stabbing ideas, I can see why a Female Gemini can do ultimate destruction onto

others. The Story involves one female Gemini being chase by another Gemini,

and because of that broke up with someone else.

[Sry brother if ya reading this, i have to say it off my heart]

See? when you have two gemini how tough things can get?

I will definately agree tat Gems hav two sides, thus far

there are four sides of it.

So with four sides against one its like playing mind game

and toying around. and talking about toying around thats what i feel....

Hmmm....being a mouse and chasing a cheese blindly in a huge Maze,

unable to see the direction and can only sMell them, hitting walls on...

-

Probably we should all just be nice and love each other,

stop sex and use reproductive machines combinging

eggs and sperms so no Aids and no MAss Orgy in this world.

Look at how much harm Sex can cause??

Tat way we save birth rate control, we save abortion rates,

we save lots of law suits.

-

Hmmm...time for my Game of Basketball and yes, its an exciting game over

soccer, at least thats what i feel. The rest of the world's feelings?

I couldn't care moRE.

Hard To Pleas3

This world is hard to please, everyone else is hard to please.

As much as I would like to put the condamn list to a few personnel,

as much as I would like to use words like "general or most people are hard

to please" I decided not to.

I'm quite tired of trying to understand and figure out things in this world.

Especially HUMAN.

-

Humans are darn hard to understand,

If you are a shit ass in relationship, people will try to stay away from ya,

Now in 05, even if you are MR. Nice Guy, people will

also freak out and leave you because you are too good to be true and

they might jolly well be afraid of hurting your GooD-O-Feelings.

What has MAN KIND become? HOW COME all Logics contradicts each other.

-

I am truely tired of hearing such things again and again,

and I am Half-Hearted in life.

You can NEVER EVER be a good person with great thoughts

and great love and caring and nice to others.

BECAUSE PEOPLE DUN BELIEVE SUCH ASSHOLE EXIST.

No one will ever try becoming one because of this shit society.

Yup, Life is CYNICAL.

-

for once i rest my case, cause no one appreciates each other.

-

Any Takers? Probably not cause everyone thinks alike.

hmmm..i'm getting weird dreamz recently...but then again,if it really happen i won't mind being a real super star...LOLxx... 

Moody

I didn't expect my new drawing for 05 would be this...

but really...i am moody today.

I just can't understand why people won't be considerate about other's

about their constraint and stuff...won't think for others.

-

Issit really that hard to just spare a thought for others?

why must so many people jump into conclusion on other peeps.

without giving them a chance to explain.

Why can't people be understanding for just once.

These poeple should all just go and 013.

-

I am extremely low now, because of what i cannot change

and because of what have been done,

and also because of no one to talk to....

or maybe i shouldn't say no one to talk to?

maybe i should say the ones that i wanna talk to are not there to talk to?

I'm gonna sleep,.,

probably tomorrow will be a better day,

a better day when i read my men's commander's appraisal.

Theres always so much good words in them sometimes i really

not sure they tellin the truth....

perhaps tats whats wrong with me....

i always choose not to believe in others....

Its hard....its just too hard to differentiate between right

and wrong these days.

between lies and truth.

-

Sigh.......

very..very....moody 

Why are We all so loNely :PART IV

Feelings
-
The part about loneliness never stops as usual and yes,
just as what i have been posted so far, we will always get lonely.
The only measure is long or short. Been running around recently,
those Christmas celebrations and New Year gatherings ++ late nights
of movie shows. As I go on talking about all that have been done in this
recent two weeks, I am awaiting happyly for today to end.
-
~~Simple~~
-
Caused tomorrow will be the last day of work for the week before we move
on to the weekends, while similarly, I shall happily await for the comin
of next next week which i will be MIA from WORK. LOLx Clearing OFF. Thats
pretty much a nice way to start the year but then again, though I'm
taking time off, its about being lonely again and what to do for that
period of free time.
-
The measure of quality time against freedom is getting more and more
vague recently and I don't really know what to have in life; Especially
when you get to know someone special.
-
And yes, talking about special peeps,
I have practically lost touch of what i used to do in relationships.
That even now, I guess its still hard to go out with someone you fancy
and just be "YOURself". You probably have heard it many times about
being "YourSelf" but it sure is very very very hard. Thus even if you
are genuinely going out with someone, physically seeing someone,
it still may get lonely. LIke erm....can't click in communicating? No
topic to talk about? I saw the movie preview for "HiTch" and yes, it
resembles the fact where I used to talk educate others how to woo
someone but now it seems its so hard when you're doing it yourself.
Chemistry is something that is soOOo hard to create unless you hit the
jackpot of the right mood, the right timing and the right person.
-
THEN AGAIN, IT MIGHT BE WRONG
-
Actually,it does feel ok if two person is going out and everything
is silent, probably for a period of time. Sometimes I guess, for me
its just like having the other person there as a company, its very
hmmm...smoothing to have the other part there?
-
If we really have a partner in life, do we have to commit to them
in every moment and every second? If not , do we commit to them when
we are empty and lonely? If so, ain't we actually using them as a
temporary partner only when we are lonely?
-
I can't see the line, can you?

New Year : 2005

Welcome all to 2005

-

for the next 355 days, there will still be more sweating,

less sleeping, more stress in life. Therefore do not expect life to get any easy

and start telling yourself 2005 will be the YEAR!!

-__- !

Dun bluff yourself la, if can make it will make it one lar, if cannot

make it , won't happen de. Stay happy all,

as i move on to my DO duty in one hours time. LOLx

life is sooo interesting.

-

I'm gonna be a real superhero soon

WedNesday

Looking at the topic you probably kno3 how empty I am right now.

I can't even think of a proper title, actually i dun hav anything to say,

really, nothing. But just feel like blogging cause actually,

I did like typing. Its the kinda fulfillment when you do speed typing

and just go on and on. I'm not saying I'm fast, but good enuff to be noticed.

=]. I have seen other inhuman peeps that can really type like a writer at 112WPM,

one of my men can do it, thats almost twice my speed, almost. The max

I did was like 80? His one-hella speedo, but anyhow, his "GAng-daNg" mah,

of course fast lar.

-

So, lets talk about Wed.

Wed is a good day, cause its in mid-week and its nites off time

for my area. Thus can have a break and head home.

Been asked to go Mambo tonight, in fact is another 45 mins away.

But i suddenly have the urge "NOT to GO"

lolx, i dunno, when I wanna go clubbing,

its about knowing peeps and ...enjoying? but thats always a scenerio

i try to paint. In fact "NO" clubbing dun get you friends,

it gives you ladies that club with their hubbies and lick around.

it gives you chee chee gurls who give you the, eh F-O look.

So what does clubbing give you? it actually gives you nothing but

aimless dreaming of the "next" clubbing ya gonna go to will be better:

-Not-

Nope it doesn't get better. But indeed, the last clubbing i hav was really fun.

And it really was, other than the first clubbin experience, the last

one was another total diff one. And it will just stay there for that moment?

I dun foresee anymore exciting clubbin to come along,

caused firstly i seldom club, and secondly the clubbin scene really,

I literally and sincerely mean, NOT EXCITING.

Unless you are the thick face shit guy next door or else you not gonna hook

any gurls under your pants.

But if yar sincerely going out to enjoy dancing with your friends without

any motives like i used to, then probably it will be fun.

Else, stop pinning hopes and pray you dun get AIDS.

lolx life sux, and here i am leaving around 30 minutes to think,

will I go?

Right now its money against weightage of what i can get out of it.

Which with my finger tips can count lar...

But again, guys are like that, they always hope for the best and pray

something will happened in the next one,

and the next one, and the next one........

And finally,

the last main reason why I'm pondering is because,

I'm afraid if i go, I will miss something,

and if i don't go, i might miss something also.....

Life is full of decisions, and hard ones.....

-

-

-

How come life is always so tough?

Christmas Ev3

BBQ pics during this years Christmas. =]

Aint it wonderful? this is seletar reserviour, my usual hangout in the past. Used to cycle there but now...things have changed. Can't believe a K700i can give this kinda quality. hahhaha I love this place. Simply gorgeous 

unloading of stores 

our barang barang. 

our sound system for the day....pretty pathatic 

yup., our starter and charcoal with the cheap Alluminium for the bbq 

hmm...the initial start up...its getting dark  

That was like 6 to 7 starters for the charcoal... 

that took long? 

Why are We all so loNely :PART III

After September's part II, heres the sequal

-

at today's issue, we wont be covering about going out alone,

neither will it be about dreams. [ notice how i use the word "WE" cause most

of the time theres the devil and angel thoughts]

-

so, with that said, what are we covering today?

Ah...today we gonna talk about loneliness on having a partner basis and not.

-

Have you ever wonder are you having a partner because theres a need to

or issit because you are lonely? Does having a partner equally renders

you to unloneliness? So therefore, does it really makes a difference if you have

a partner and if you dun. If at this point of time you are thinking about the

fact that having a partner renders you to being able to have a constant

company by your side then once again that can always never be the case.

If that cannot be the case, why can't we all just flirt around and won't life become

any easier? Thus would it really make a difference if we have a partner

and if we dun?

-

Once again if you think along the line that with a relationship we

will be loyal to our partners but then again why can't we be loyal to the ones

we flirt with?

-

It probably doesn't make any sense to anyone of you why im asking all these.

It didn't make sense to me either.

Up until the point where you dun have a relationship,

you have been practically rotting alone during valentines,

trying to figure out who you can go out with during weekends,

you probably start thinking a little here and there.

Of course i'm not making the assumption that all singles should be like me,

but at least i believe everyone should think through this.

-

Instead of telling your partner how you love him/her, how much you treasure

each other, can you, yes YOU give yourself at least one reason why you should

be in a relationship?

Why can't you be like Einstein and study all day probably there might be

another great invention tomorrow.

-

Finally,

I have yet to think of a reason why am i not in a relationship or why i should

have one. But once again, these are just things which we can all ponder.

At the end of the day, do you really have a goal in life?

-

Is LONELINESS so unbearable?

-

-

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previous issues can be found on:

http://dimsumdemon.blogspot.com/2004_09_01_dimsumdemon_archive.html

KUNG FU HUSTLE

Excellent and Splendid

my reviews for the movie, just caught its sneak today.

He didn't disappoint anyone i guess, Stephan Chow's KUNG FU HUSTLE

is a must watch during christmas, everyone was laughing throughout. I would say

it is film with his very trademark. Lots of CG effect for the film.

I guess 3 years of long waiting was worth it, cause he didn't made it to be

just another normal Kung Fu show.

-

~WHY YOU SHOULD WATCH KUNG FU HUSTLE~

-

01]its by Stephan Chow

02]its not your stupid slap stick joke movie

03]its about seeing someone going through the good and evil

04]it managed to squeeze in the usual romance of a film

05]the cg is quite outstanding and up to international par

06]because i say so therefore must go watch.

-

~Contest~

-

Theres these art contest coming up and i intend to join it, but its a

tough one, caused its international level. hmmm....

Lets see what i can do

An advance Merry Christmas to all =] 

Another video

it seems lately tat i really , really am getting lost touch with drawing...

hmmm... and lots of cards and singing in life, nevertheless, as promised,

i will still try to post some works....lolx....probably old works.....

as usual, probably won't get a chance to blog during weekdays....

hmmm....anyhow, an Advance merry christmass to all. Enjoy your sweet and fun

loving holiday.

=]

-

http://www.geocities.com/killerbe83/dimsum-onehandseconddeal-wifpc.zip

KTV !!!

Muahhahahha

I finally decided to expose my disgusting voice online.

lolz

Been to KTV these few weeks again, long time no sing.

And yes...i recorded my own session...wahhah

[Xiao di chang de bu shi hen hao,

but stil wanna post lar..hahah]

3 songs for your ears,

su yong kang's "sorry", ekin's "gam sum tai duoi lei" and jay's "hui dao guo qu"

yes i love singing...lolx...today went out with my uncles and aunt,

had dinner and nearly went ktv...

[why didnt go..argh.... @#$!]

Anyhow...any ktv experts out there can teach me how to break voice?

always stuck at a certain key and limit..some songs cannot sing...

haiz.....damn sad.......

Please call me to KTV anytimEE...

wahhahahahahahahahh

cheers, heres the link:

-

http://www.geocities.com/killerbe83/ktv.zip

[btw, you need to have quicktime to play them. I think version 6.5 should do,

else send to sony ericsson's k700i to hear ba...=]]

Card-Handling

As most of you have known,i'm a card freak.

And reason test still proves so.

lolx

Been learning how to deal cards single handed and theres some mark

improvement...so without furthur due...heres something i flim

with my right hand on my little SE K700i while i,

yes, single-handedlyy deal cards.

ENJOYZ

-

[the link below will download a zip file,inside contains two .3gp mov

which can be view with your quicktime version 6.5 or handphones like

nokia 6230 or any taht supports it.]

http://www.geocities.com/killerbe83/dimsum-onehandseconddeal.zip

WarCraft

Sitting down uncomfortably at my chair, i feel like smashing the screen.

Why is that so? because my constant 3 game wins at 3 diff races of

each high lvl 16,19 and 12 has finally gone $%*&^%.

I feel like writing in to the admin poeple in warcraft FTF asking them how the

FISH do they pair me up 1v1 with these sluts of so high lvl.

And every round i win moves on to a higher level slut.

As if easy, i decided to restart a new account to play 1v1 and just as i thought

I really...REALLY think i was good, this lvl 22 shit NE ends my straight wins.

-

To those who have no shit idea what is Warcraft 3 FTF,

I'm really sorry, today's blog is just about complaining.

how come there are sOOOoo many good players out there?

Why can't they just all lose or something when they meet me.

SHIT THEM...

-

life sux

Speed painting

Hmm...took me about 30mins painting it.
This not the full-res,but enjoy the gif lar

Annex A. my 2 years old photo 

2004

Probably I should start my own movie, the title will be 1983.

-_- I ain't copying 2046....lolx This one gonna be long, so pop some food.

-

Anyhow, lets look back wat happen in life,

for the cursious and....for myself.

EnjoyX

-

-1983-

The birth of the intellectual being

[See Annex A]

-

-1983 to 1985-

My first ever appearance on newspaper with my mum,

its on the chinese article about birth thingy. Dun ask me why, I just

happen to be there. lolx

During this period of time, I live in Old " Alisanta"

Most of you won't know where that is,the area is gone now.

-

-1986 to 1988-

A period of ups and down for myself. There were only a few places

for me during this point of my life. Its either walking around in house,

going to Malaysia staying in my aunt's house or going down

"Da buo/Xiao Buo" <--thats what we call chinatown in

those days. [Some things to note at this point * I'm not

exactly in good terms with my relatives, cause I always get beaten up

in my Biggest aunt's house; for the things i do not do wrong, at least thats

what i feel, no one shall has a say over this.

-

-1989 to 1996-

I believe this is the period where i went to primary school

I came from Jiemin, a neighbourhood in yishun. Its the kinda...

ermm..unsignificant school and normal life in kids days.

What i consider normal life would be enjoying playing

"dua ka", gor-li, catching, hum-dam bola.....

from P1 to P3, i believe i was a....excellant kid? The kind that just study and

practically nothing else. life was books everyday...And i did fair quite well.

But from P4 onwards...hmm...i won't consider myself changing for the worst?

I believe its life starting to become fun?

Grades drop, standards gone and practically, everyday was games and

nothing else? I would always hang out under flats and play hum dam bola

with shirt tuck out, and homework not done...lots of shits.

There was even once a bunch of us skipped flag lowering and

play marble in class. We broke the glasses where the national

anthem was playing and yes, all of us canned..lolx

At this moment of life, I started dooling all those dragon ball

characters. I believe those of my age would somehow or rather

been invovle in dragon ball. I still can remember those scenes as if

yesterday.

-

-1997to2000-

Yup secondary life. Things didn't change much,

I just move next door, to Yishun Sec. Thats just beside my primary school.

You can probably guess why i choose there...or why i ended up there.

yes, the one only reason [ convinence] and i didn't had good grades then.

Things like eca becomes more prominent. Thats the era of my life

where i get to know a few good men.

You will know why its a few later on.

Got invovle in alot of eca. Life becomes more weary and lucky me

went into express class. I'm not the kind that likes to study, in fact

i hate it. I would rather stay home toy with my genesis which

eventually became a PS.

Lots of ECA for me, table tennis lar, Pa system, librarian, air rifle club, etc.

From the above i guess most of you can see how inconsistent i am in life.

And yes, i am still inconsistent now. I picked up guitar at this point of my life.

I love singing also, Ice skating and pool were some other stuff i learn.

After express class, I never like talking to the gurls. Cause of somethings

happened back when i was sec2. Friends everyday also say i

"Chee Hong"...yup, so i closed all my female links then. During POA class

[Principal of Accounts. yes im an account student...-_- nothing wrong

wat, I say i didn't wanna be call chee hong but didnt say i can choose

to bio zha bo in class....lolz....] I was always at the corner. Its bloody

obvoius caused, the gurls and some other guys would stick infront in

class while me and hong were the only two solos at the middle corner row.

Despite the constant persuation by our POA teacher, we seldom move our sits.

We weren't rebellious, both of us were just lazy. I never pay attention

during POA lessons, caused i knew i had ah hong to depend on everything

else, and also because i dun even wanna score in the curriculum.

Sec 4

A time where most students will be panic,at least the express classes

cause of O levels. I was still fooling around in life, getting into

relationships and off them. I dun consider myself a flirt, cause in

the first place i dun even have the looks or skills to start with, those

relationships are...of genuine but doesn't get anywhere kind?

-

-2001to2003-

I started poly, lucky me again, I had an average O level grade.

Went into NYP under Digital Media Design

[Lots of you have ask me what is DMD, that is, its a course of study

that deals with media including video, animation both 2d and 3d and

a little of design sense]

Life was hard, I had to manage between work and friends and

relationship. Even after schools, I would go out and work.

School fees was a constant problem. I didn't get to go out often,

and had a few friends during my course of study, I'm really happy

i knew them, people like roger, shannon, peng ven and not forgetting

jj. Of cause there were other very talented artist that was in the course,

far more talented than me i would say. But these few were the guys

that like to slack but somehow produce good work, I cannot

understand the theory why, lolx. Yes we were all lazy.

They were the guys who taught me Half life and CS also.

Lan gaming influence was due to them, not forgetting KOF.

Life became better after 2000.

There were a big cut off during our year 1, lots of friends didn't make

it to year 2. DMD is hush, theres always a term project that we have

to go through in interview style by the lecturers. Those who had

no portfolio work would be kicked out.

I went on in life to year2 in 2001. Things picked up, thanks to the bursaries

all these years that helped me survived in school. I gave up relationship

during this point of my life and worked hard for studies.

Things paid off luckily. I went on to year3.

My final year of poly.

I was worried about in few things in life, money,career and army.

Obviously i had no power to change anything at this point of my life,

but i just like to think. I'm the kinda dweller that keeps dwelling.

So if there really is a problem or situation i can't solved, I will still

dwell on it for years.....Major changes happen in my life during this

point of time, from art styles, to relationships, friends and even relatives.

Alot of things changed for the good and bad.

I believe during 2002 to 2003, theres a mentality change in everyone.

Probably its just me and what happened during this time tat caused me to

think this way. Fame and glory came during year3. I get to go for a lucky

TV interview, get on the newspaper, won a few contest and get to go to india.

Some unfortunate things happen also, I lost a friend during this time.

I won't use the word backstab ...but i lost a girlfriend when i was in india.

Apparantly she came close to one of my so call "brothers"

[Notice the fact that i used the word "brothers?" - in simply means

friends which you have known for a minimum engaging period of time,

for this case was 7to8 years and went through some thick and thin with?"

Friends you share your problems, friends which you will care and be there

vice versa.]

Life was disappointing during this time not because of what happened,

but because of the mentality of both my ex gf and that guy?

[Notice how i used the word "that guy"; its not because i do not wanna

get associated with, its jus that after all this time you dun even know

if you wanna call him a friend of stranger? What you wan me to do?

Take it that nothing happen in life? I'm not a dildo....]

I never really blame anyone, maybe i did for a day or two. But i believe

I even if i did i have the right.

Imagine yourself overseas and losing two person in life. And when you

know you can never get them back and things will never be the same.

Not mentioning i was having an operation overseas and the female

was soooooo greatful to me breaking me the news during christmas

just a few weeks before i head home.

HoW wonderful and GOOd can life be?

[Notice how long this para is and hmm...it really digs into my head

cause up till this date, i still can't really get over it.]

ok lets move on in life.

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-2003 till now-

Lucky me went into army during 2003. Got into officer course

and finally commissioned. During that 10 months, met alot of interesting people,

especially during Sig course. All the little sluts in the mama-san bunk. lolx

Thanks for tolerating my yelling. wootz!!

Currently a 3-year regular, dun ask me why

i signed on, but i can give you a reason to WHY i will not continue the contract.

life is ok right now. I'm only saving for Uni, as usual, money for studies..

Still am worried about my carreer. Nope not in a relationship and dun foresee

getting into one, I dun think have chance. Girls nowadays are too complicated

and hard to understand. Got into cards and still am excited over it.

Have 3 brothers that keeps hanging on to me in my life, thanks for being there

and erm....looking forward to 2005.

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Take a look back, life is interesting.

If you think you have things to share, I will always try to be a listening ear.

[NOtice how i used the word always; it simply means will by all-ways be there,

but notice how i used try to be after it. I'm just covering my backside

if i can't be there, please be understanding. lolx]

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A new Motherboard

Bought a new mother-board today

together with a water cooler....

But somehow or rather....it is bloody sloww......

I will never understand why that is the case, everytime i upgrade

my pc, there is bound to be some shit happening and it just doesn't

perform to par....no value for money.

I guess will have to wait for the mother-board to be seasoned...

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Meanwhile, haven been blogging lately, have been busy

playing warcraft 3....and waiting for World of Warcraft

for peeps who do not know what they are, they are games by BLIZZARD

and just fasinating. Anyhow, the WOW haven had its asian launch. And

seriously speaking,i'm just waiting to buy the limited edition

and grab the art book. Lol, i dun have the kinda time to play at all.

Will buck up and get back to my work soon.

Should be posting some pictures during mid-month.

Meanwhile, theres lots of birthday celebration going on lately.

[how come everyone is like born on Dec?]

Hell knows...lolx

Shag Out

realling shag out today,

was out the whole day...grab a copy of another art book....

cost a bomb of $78. Well, heres some drawing i just did,

and i literally mean i just did, [drawn 2 minute ago]

Took 10mins to finish it....just to test my life drawing.

Sux...my life drawing has gone down the drain..

Looks like i really need to touch up on my skills....

need to revise soon.

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Happy birthday to Claudia,

thats my...God-sister?

and hell knows why and when...lolx.

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Got alot more to do tomorrow...and i really am very tired now...

this week was suppose to be free and easy?

how come its like so pack and...so much to do?

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I'm starting to grow smaller.....

Some touch-ups 

stage3?? 

The final image, real bad....lolz....I'm gonna kill myself 

Jay Zhou

Jay Concert

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Some photos from my fishy's contribution.

That crazy fellow [along with a few others] went for the concert.

I believe it must have been real fun..look at the freak,

he was 30 metres close to the singer.

WTF !#$???!! lolz

Talking about jay, just grab a copy of his book,

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Grandeur de D major

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Its quite a worth considering its just $25 for a small

walkthough of someone else life. Theres certain value in this

book that you can quite look up to and be inspired.

he was that close...30m to jay..ai say.... 

jay and Nan quan mama...lolz 

Thats $150 that fishy spend...crazy! 

Blogger going crazy...

I think blogger is going crazy

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its giving me auto double post on my stuff....

Anyhow, Good day gentlemen, back to my life;

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My life have been weird and unexciting,

And thats why i am behaving weird also.

Saw this mini Octopussi3 at bugis today, after my trip down to Sitex.

Yes...the four legged creature. Was too amazed by the shape

and expression that i couldn't help buying it.

-Its a Massager-

"ai say, hoe eh?"

this mini toy pack with real action of lasting powers,

to drive you incredibily InsanE!!

Its full functional with a DOUBLE A batt.

hiak hiak hiak...."li hai ba?"

Anyhow, anyone interested can go Bugis and grab one.

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SITEX FAIR

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Went around to shop for a thumb drive and good enough,

i got one from LEXAR.

A 1GB mini thumb - $139

Not bad lar, quite cheap compare to last time liao,

somemore got 5 year warrenty.

Also got a free Vitalsign shooting demo.

And after 1 hour playing it,

IT SUX -__- !

probably if i had the subscription it will be better.

Anyhow, met alot of chee chee gurlz today....

I wonder how much they earn just to shake here shake there,

walk around and take photos.

One of them from the Zen booth look real familiar

Seems to be one of my dmd coursemate.

Anyhow, i didn't comfirm it anyway.

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Its 0630am...i been working throughout the nite.

Shouldn't have promised to do project I...

sIgh...if only i have more time......

wish me luck guys, life is tough to be an underground Artist

Massag3r......or you can call it 4 way dil...lol.... 

 

 

UnFaIR ???

-The world is unfair-

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Or issit?

Is the real world such a pain in the ass? People get treated on different level,

being view differently and having different estab.

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Jealousy, that is what trigger my blogging for tonight,

at least for today.

Jealousy to everything. How come beautiful things

happen to others effortlessly,

while to people like us, its the

[DUn even DreAm about it]

and to people like them, its

[I just wanna be simple]

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The World Creates simple people who wanted fame and glory,

and for famous and glourious people, they wanted simplicity.

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No answers. There is no answer to everything.

Some people says the least closest answer is;

LUCK.

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Those born pretty but dumb gets away with the looks.

Those born with intelligence are smart enough to get pass noticed.

Those born with no looks no intelligence gets no say.

Those born too pretty too intelligent dies too young.

The rest just try to get on with life.

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Whoever started saying girls should be treated to equality with men? There is no such things as equal, to hell with equal course in the end, how can there be equal to all when everyone started out with different assets ?

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Theres no right or wrong in this world.

Theres is only the strong and weak.

This rule will never change.

Hom3 Sweet Hom3

Back from Australia

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Finally, after all the unpacking and washing, now i'm going back to that old cell again. I really dun understand how people can be as retarded to planning as I can be...How come I am not taking a small tiny whiney more break from my 5 weeks overseas and have to go back to my old cell and slog? Shits happen and sometimes, there really is too much retards out there... 2 much.

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A hi back to all the folks here in Sg, yes, after a one day delay in flight, i'm back. =] Not as really happy as can be due to #!$$%#!%!# I'm getting. Nevermind, i will take a long vacation next week i guess...=] ANyhow, Australia has been really exciting, not that i have been there enjoying holiday for 5 weeks, but really, it was fruitful. The trip decided some of the grey areas in my life about which ever steps to take next, and i think, i have settle on what to do. This good 1 month trip sees me through to some really professional butch of rich guys whom i was lucky to have met. It also sees me through some tough times with a few of my fellow mates, not to forget freaking crazy Issac, fateful Mr. DX and CK, and the idiotic duo Jeff and William, [Pleas3 stop calling me Pussy Cat or Puss in Boots you freaking sluts.] Anyhow, it was fun, get to see how Australian live their life. Slowww and easy....and i really mean sloww........ =] To those whom looking forward to me buying stuff back....wahhahah Nop3 i bought nothing....lolz.....theres really no shit out there la, its not like i been to GOLD COAST or whatever? So really, if anyone of you out there yearn to have something from Australia, go there yourself.

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Proj3ct I

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Right now I'm taking a new step towards my dream again, so everything gonna be busy and errr...pack. Its the step to get me back to where i originally was, and i really hope to be successful on this one. Other than that, lots of birthday gurls this next month. Gonna be busy going to parties....hope its not the usual stuff.....ie. go to Pasir ris then bbq , eat and eat and eat....hope someone comes up with a better birthday party with real entertainment value. And really hope i get to be invited for the post dinner with the richies.....lolx

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cheers to all dreams

FlyinG overSeas....

Yes yes I'm going OverSeas

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Farewell all, misses and.....I just miss my Pok3r vIdeos...lolz

I can't wait to get back already.

Will be S33ing lotza Koala and stuff....

Do 3njoy yourself everyone

while I'm away.....

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~~A flying Sup3r Hero~~